“Every one is worthy of love, except him who thinks that he is. Love is a sacrament that should be taken kneeling.” ~ Oscar Wilde, De Profundis
I was running when I heard/felt the words spoken to me.
Is there a word in the English language to describe the experience of hearing and feeling thought-words spoken in the depths of your psyche? Because it’s not a voice that’s heard or a physical sensation that’s felt.
It’s more than that. It’s a supernatural experience. And as I was running, the thought-words came, “Get down on your knees.”
Naturally, I didn’t actually get on my knees – I was on a public street – and I knew I was meant to continue running. It was because I was running that I was able to tune out the world’s static and dial my mind to an open channel.
And the Eternal Source dialed in and spoke to my soul.
As it happens, I knew exactly what was meant by those words. Lately, there have been specific matters requiring my unspoken forgiveness. Meaning I have to forgive certain individuals for hurtful things without actually confronting them.
Sometimes it’s best that way. But the point is, when forgiving requires superhuman efforts, and it appears that you’re losing the battle on a daily basis, an underlying cause might be the stumbling block.
In my case, “get on your knees” signaled a need for humility. It had happened once before; the same words were communicated to me at a seemingly random and inexplicable moment.
I knew then, as I do now, that God was telling me to put my soul in a posture of humble deference.
What? Why be humble when someone has offended you?
There is nothing to indicate a need for humility here, is there? Outside of the supernatural intervention I received, I would’ve had absolutely no idea humility was missing. How in the world does a posture of humility help with forgiving someone who’s mistreated you?
I think this is what is meant by turning the other cheek, which is an expression I always found ridiculous and ineffective. Until now. Because when forgiveness is difficult or impossible to find, finding humility gives you a delete button.
When you hit delete – when you’re down on your knees it’s so much easier – you wipe away all the negative constructs, all the images, thoughts, and associations that kept pulling you into a posture of pride and opposition.
It’s like you’ve opened the tightly cranked window to your soul and let all the stale air out. You won’t believe how much freer you can breathe when you’ve humbled yourself into forgiveness.
Open the window and let your soul experience new life. The Spirit of humility will set a fire down in your soul.
Is there any place you’d rather be?
“Set a Fire Down in My Soul,” by Will Reagan and United Pursuit
“Humility is throwing oneself away in complete concentration on something or someone else.”
~ Madeleine L’Engle